That was really weird. Ya see, I haven’t been on Xanga for what? 5 months? But suddenly when I was on my way to be newest obsession, Myspace, I typed www.xanga.com instead. I haven’t done that for ever! So I decided to look around for a while. That’s when I realized that I had forgotten everything about Xanga. I hardly remembered how to get to my site or make the Weblog… is that what you call it? The weblog entry you’re reading right now. So suddenly I became really, sad. <woah! I forgot about those smiles to.
I really don’t know why. Wait, what am I kidding? Yes I do! It’s because at the beginning of the year I would get on to my little Xanga everyday. Everyday!! To see if any friend liked me enough to give me a comment or two. They were so weird! And boring you have to admit... “And then I went pee and then I got a snack. The snack was apple juice and pretzals. I’m sorry this entry was so boring…It will be better next time!” And now, what seemed so important back then, is simply just a bizarre record of my life for a few months. 
I’m also sad because I read over some old entries. Things popped into my head that I was too close to forgetting. Isn’t it funny how things and events can make you feel? Like the things you experience with your friends that make you laugh so hard you have to stop before you pee your pants, or break your heart and touch your soul and make the tears flow? Odd how, these things which felt so alive to us, are so easily forgotten… But isn’t that how we’re told to live? In the moment? I suppose…
I still like my site. Funny how it ended up. Funny how I can’t remember any of the layouts I worked so hard to find. I like my song to- haha- although I really don’t hear it much anymore. However, in my Myspace I have enough confidence to show my face in my pictures lol- I think I was just trying to be edgy.That’s another thing I couldn’t remember how to fix if I tried. 
What else has changed? I survived Freshman year- my favorite class ended up being the one that at first, was the least important, Speech. I did really well in it to. That class became like a little family. The hardest was Journalism but I liked that to. I drew the editioral cartoon in the 12th issue because they forced me to.
She said I was the only one in her 3 whole periods that could draw at all. Except no one even knew it was me, because I only put im initials like I drew one every week. Dummy. To this very moment I can’t decided if I should take Broadcast like im signed up for or wait and try newspaper. But then again, I don’t want to be in Katie’s shadow. There’s something! Katie graduated with honors. She was all be-gangled in honers and tassels and her blonde hair was flying and her huge Katie smile was shining--- kinda funny actually. I was really proud of her. I’m stepping up this year. Taking her place and stepping up to the plate of “highschooler”. 
We don’t really have that much time left if you think about it. 2 more summer gyms. 3 more band camps. 10 more dances. Then POOF, you’re done and expected to have figured out how to live your life. I made flagline. So did Amy and Kelsey… I’m so happy, thrilled in-fact. I would have quit band if I didn’t make it. No, I’m kidding myself. I would have stayed in but it wouldn’t have been for me. It would have been for the Varns or mom or Katie or Kelsey. I met a guy to! We’ll ive kind of known him for a while, but still. I had lunch with him today. That also means I’ve gotten over james, I guess. And if for some weird reason james ends up reading this… the answer is yes, I liked you a lot actually- but you probably knew that. I really need to stop falling for guys so hard. Geeze, I liked him for longer than ive had my myspace hahah. Maybe not, maybe I just liked the IDEA of him. Know? Still tight with my girls. The 6-some especially.  Then Ive also gotten to know some crazy woman a lot better to. (you know who you are..)
((That’s another thing I don’t really understand about online sites. How can I get into this little writing mode and write and write as if im talking to everyone in the world? I mean, who are you supposed to write to? In a journal it’s yourself, but this is way different))
Ive has some amazing times with those ladies. I got a hair cut. I traveled to Sanibel for perhaps the last time, because they sold the house just because they were tired of it. I’m going to Arizona probably this summer. I have collected 126 friends on Myspace. I was good enough to join AP history so I should be doing that right now. I should be doing my summer reading to.
I really have no idea why I wrote this little shebang- but for some weird reason I feel a lot better now.
I wonder who will read this. I wonder who even still looks at Xangas… I hope it’s not just the 40 year old naked harry stalkers cause that would be a waste of a very deep deep entry haha.
Now wait… how do you post this again?
I love you, god bless
<3
… I also learned that this…<3…. Was a heart and not a kiss.
Whoo baby, im gonna be one smart woman before I graduate, huh?
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